I miss you

"I hope you're able to fall asleep" -- Me
"I'll just pretend you're sleeping next to me, I do it all the time" -- Kyle

It's little things like that that make me miss him the most.

Life Is Good

It's been awhile since I've written a blog. Life has been pretty crazy lately but things are really good right now. Kyle is officially overseas so at first that was really hard to deal with and I shut myself off from others. He was able to buy a cell phone over there and he has been able to call me everyday now. He's been really busy with work over there but still has been able to call me before he goes to bed. I am so thankful of the technology that they have over there for them. Just hearing his voice brings so much ease to me and really makes my day so much better. At this point, I'm really happy during this deployment right now. This deployment has only impacted our relationship in a positive way. We are more in love than ever and couldn't be more excited for him to come home and start our life together.

Today I went to a yellow ribbon event for families and spouses of soldiers from Kyle's unit. It was to help with stress management and just to get to talk with others who are going through the same situation as us. It was really nice to hang around other military wives/girlfriends and just be able to talk about our emotions and issues with the deployment. It brought a lot of comfort to me to be around them and have them relate with me and support me. I'm really glad I went to the event and really hope I can get involved in FRG meetings and keep in contact with all of them. It's nice to have a little support group since I really don't have that here at school.

I miss him so much.

Everlasting Memories

I haven't written a post since I left to go see Kyle. It's still hard for me to talk about my visit to see him without getting upset. Everything about those 4 days together was so perfect. It really couldn't have been any better, I had such an amazing time with him. I just remember standing at the hotel doors waiting for his car to arrive and watching him run across the parking lot and into my arms. Once I was in his arms I just cried for 5 minutes straight... they were happy tears though!! It was so nice to have alone time and just lie in bed and cuddle. To just be able to kiss him and hug him... it was everything I could have asked for and more. I will remember these 4 days for the rest of my life.

Saying goodbye again was a lot harder this time around. I was fine until they announced that they would start boarding the flight... that's when I lost it. I just cried in his arms and kept holding his face in my hands and kissing him. I just couldn't bare to walk away from him again. After getting onto the plane I cried for a really long time... everyone around me thought I was nuts. Then the guy sitting behind me tapped my shoulder and asked if that was my boyfriend and told me that it broke his heart to see us say goodbye. I still get choked up talking about us saying goodbye... it's burnt a permanent image in my mind.